All my life I have been an ambitious person…maybe too ambitious. But lately, I’ve found that my ambition has been stalled by indecision and uncertainty.
Uncertainty in myself and my ability to fight for the life that I want.
I have been told to fight and never give up all my life. In fact, I was born a fighter. My mom named me Jelani because it means mighty. But the truth is, I’m tired of fighting.
I know I can not give up despite how I feel. But it’s a daily struggle to keep pushing forward when the path is unclear. Sometimes I ask myself what is the point of all this fighting? Is it worth it? But deep down, I know the answer. My ambition is what keeps me going. It’s what propels me forward and gives me purpose. It’s what makes me feel alive.
And there lie the issues of the state of my current ambition. I am struggling because I am not planning enough. I am not planning enough because I am not sure what I want to do. The cycle continues. It’s driving me insane.
My ambition is still inside of me, even if it's buried deep down.
But my lack of confidence has prevented me from breaking out of this cycle.
One of my favorite quotes is “You don’t lack confidence, you lack evidence.”
And that’s true. I lack the evidence that any of the things I am doing or have done can be successful.
It's frustrating because I know I have so much potential and I'm tired of holding myself back. I need to start taking actionable steps toward my goals and stop letting fear control me.
I am very serious about my goals, but I need to bring back my confidence by proving to myself and others that I am capable of greatness.
The world doesn’t know who I am. And I need to show them.
I need to show them that I am not just a dreamer, but I am capable of turning my dreams into reality. I need to create a plan, a roadmap that will guide me toward my goals. But where do I start?
I decide to take small steps toward my ambition. I start by making a list of my goals and breaking them down into smaller, achievable tasks. I research successful people in my field and learn from their experiences. I attend workshops and seminars to gain more knowledge and skills.
With each step I take, my confidence grows. I start to believe in myself again. I remind myself that I am mighty and that I can achieve anything I set my mind to.